Crikey. »» Wednesday, August 6, 2003
Ugh. Parents suck. They. Really. Really. Suck.
I just want to wither away and die right now. My mom has this uncanny ability to make me feel shitty about how much I weigh. Thanks, Mom. I love you, too.
Have a nice day. La-dee-fucking-da.
Ugh...Soreness. »» Friday, August 1, 2003
Man. My sides and back hurt. My sides are aching because of the Pilates I've done the past two days. My back hurts because I had to stoop over a metal basin to wash many KN Rootbeer mugs. Oh, yeah! Speaking of KN Rootbeer mugs, lemme tell ya about my first day of work which was yesterday.
Well...I was
extremely nervous at first, and felt like a sore thumb that was sticking out while everyone else was hustling about and trying to show me what the hell to do. x_X;; They kept telling me how to count change, to greet the customers with a smile, speak to them nicely, how to fill up the rootbeer mugs, and so on. On the outside I was saying, "Okay." and nodding and the like, but internally, I was screaming, "What the BLOODY HELL DO YOU MEAN?! How in the WORLD do you count change like that?! AND DO
WHAT WITH THE FRIGGIN' PINK LEMONADE MACHINE?!" Yeah. I was freakin' out. But after they let me watch them for a while, I slowly got the hang of it. Within a few hours, I was counting change out of the register a lot quicker (and actually understanding what I was doing), filling up rootbeer mugs, carrying the tray properly, and most important of all--greeting the customers with a smile and making small talk. Being nice to the customers really gives you good tips! I got $16.65 in tips on my very first night! Woo! *Bounces.* I'm hoarding all of the money I get to pay for my insurance. >_>;;; I need the money. RawR.
Emy even came up with her mom to KN to order something and I guess see how I was doing. ^^; I was like, "Yay! Some relief!" They allowed me to go out and talk to her (Emy) and even bring out their order for them. Her mom gave me a reeeaallly good tip. O_O I was like, "Thank you! =DDD" So, the next time Emy works up there, I'm going to get my family to go up there and give her a nice, big tip. xD Soon, I hope, Emy and I will get same working days/hours and we can work together. That'd make me feel a ton more comfortable. Wee.
Anywho, Kortni's b-day party is tomorrow. It's a swimming party. Yay. *Sighs.* I guess I'll have to wear my one-piece. I've only gained a pound since I started eating "normally", which was a friggin' week ago! Gah! I bet Kortni'll have a lot of junk food there to eat at her party...I won't touch it. Nu! I won't. That's not the
right way to gain weight. Bleh.
My sister has a softball scrimage tonight. Maybe my mom will let me drive my car there. I hope so. *Cackles like mad.* o.o
Stupid Scale. »» Tuesday, July 29, 2003
Okay. So I've gained weight. Just like I'm
supposed to, but it's still so depressing. It's hard to allow myself to eat normally and gain weight back merely for the sake of pleasing my parents and being allowed to drive my car. Why does weighing 98 pounds feel so
fat to me now? *Sighs.* Maybe if I can reach 105 and stay there, things won't be quite as bad. I'll just have to make sure I don't begin to pig out and end up gaining
all of my weight back. Feh. I hate being a teenager at times.
RawR. I'm so anxious about starting work on Thursday.
Emy and I went to Wally World yesterday and got us each 2 plain white T-shirts for work. Speaking of work, Emy's first day at K & N was today. I can't wait until she gets back later so I can ask her how it went. I hope all goes well. ^^;
I am employed! WOO! »» Monday, July 28, 2003
I GOT A JOB! IT'S A FLUFFIN'MIRACLE! WOOO!
Okay, now that I got that out of my system...Yes! I am finally employed! No more, "Screw corporate America!" xD I got a waitressing job at K & N. I just can't believe it. I'm still in awe. The owner of K & N called me today and asked me if I could start Thursday. I was like, "Yeah, yes, of course!" *Bounces and acts all stupid and the like.* xD I was surprised that she hired me right away instead of calling me in for an interview. Hopefully, I'll be able to rack up enough cash to start paying for my insurance on my car, and then I'll finally be able to drive! W00t! Gah. I need a tranquilizer. xDDD
Yay. Quiz. »» Sunday, July 27, 2003
What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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How in the
world did I get white? I demand a do-over.
{Edit} @ 6:43 pm.
Which Pirates of the Caribbean character are you?
Woo. I'm Elizabeth. I get to be with the extremely sexah Will Turner and have many, many babies. xD Go me. *Dances.*
Anorexia is not just a disease. It's an addiction. »» Tuesday, July 15, 2003
You know what? Anorexia is
not just being stick-thin and weighing 85 pounds.
It's not just about how much you weigh. It's also about your state of mind. Anorexia Nervosa is a
disorder, not just some silly coupling of words to make other people worry about you or bicker about how stupid you are. Anorexia takes control over you; making you fear food. You fear gaining weight. And, lemme get another thing straight. Anorexics
do eat. Of course, the amount they eat is very minimal and restricted, but they do eat. Many people think that being anorexic, you can't eat a damn thing. Wrong. A person can eat some foods and still be considered anorexic. You don't have to look emaciated to be placed in an eating disorder group. Jeez.
Also, any eating disorder, including compulsive eating (overeating), is highly dangerous. Most people don't see compulsive eating as an ED, but it is.
Remember, anorexia is a state of mind. Not just how much you weigh or how thin you look. Those who don't have the disorder may want to think twice the next time before they fire off hateful comments at people that claim to have an Eating Disorder. It can be a very dangerous situation. Trust me, I know.
Children=Insanity. »» Tuesday, July 15, 2003
I hate kids. Stupid, little infantiles. I'm never having children. I'm messed up enough as it is. I don't need demon spawn to screw me over anymore. Gah. I wish I could drive.
Evil Orthadontist. »» Monday, July 14, 2003
Scream!@Orthadontist. Evil, he be! Mean and vicious, I tell you. u_u He did just about every irritating, annoying, and aggitating thing you can think of to my mouth this afternoon. He prodded, he poked, and he pinched. I wanted to take those stupid pliars and pick out every freaking nose hair he had. >:3 Stupid bald man. I should make him wear braces like
me and show him how it feels. RawR. The corners of my mouth were stretched for so long, they began to burn. I was thinking, "Hurry up! HURRY UP!" but noooooo--he had to take his own sweet time. He was probably chuckling at my agony. Bastardly bitch. I hope he burns in a really hot hell. =P
Anyway, I'm done ranting. I feel better now. >=D So, who's a big fan of J-Pop? *Raises her hand.* Woo. I love
Do As Infinity. I listened to their music for 3 hours straight today while on the computer. The lead singer of
Do As Infinity is
Van Tomiko. I think she is just beautiful. Simply gorgeous. If I were asian,
I would love to look like her. Whew. That was a bunch of links, but she's just so pretty. Darn asian peoples and their prettiness. -_-;;
Finally Archived. »» Monday, July 14, 2003
Well, I finally did it. I wiped all of the older entries off and decided to start with a clean slate again. My page was getting too long and cluttered with quizzes, anyway. If you would like to take a peek at them, though, I linked the archive page on the sidebar. Yep. Sure did.
So, I put my new layout up. Whatcha think of it? I think it's okay. I just hate that noticeable color change when the background kicks in on the page. I wonder why it does that? Maybe it's because I saved the background image as a .gif file instead of a .jpg file. *Shrugs.* I dunno. I guess I'll have to figure it out sooner or later.
I can't quite seem to understand what's going on with my body lately.
That time of the month has not come since I've been out of school. I've even been eating, so it can't be because of malnutrition or something like that. At least, I wouldn't think so. Speaking of eating, it seems as though I keep losing weight even though I'm eating. My body is a retarf {Yes, retarf. That's not a typo. I just like the word retarf.}. *Sighs.* I'm just weird. Gah.
I need to get a job! I NEED TO GET A JOB! But I can't seem to find a place that needs 16-year-olds to hire. x_X; Damnit. If I don't get a job soon, I'll be stuck riding the bus to school instead of my spiffy new car. *Groans.* I want to be able to drive! I want to pick Amanda up for school in the morning and whenever else I want to. I wanna be FREEEE! o.o;; Yeah. Ahem.
